I feel defeated.
By Joe, that's exactly what it is. Defeat! I've been sitting around trying to hash out whatever it is I'm feeling into a blog post or through music to figure it out, and there it is. Defeat.
School. Relationships. Life in general. It's all a sad country song really.
Okay, so I exaggerate.
It's really not that bad.
And that's the thing. Life is not bad. Not at all. Minus the fact that I am having some serious quarter-life crisis. I've contemplated all day long on whether or not to change my concentration or not, but alas I've decided to stick with Biblical Studies (much to my demise). I just want out of college. I am so done. Stick a fork in me. Done, I say.
I want to learn how to cook and sew really well. Hone some decent song-writing skills, learn some German and then move to Germany for a few years. I want to host house dinners and help plant a church. Learn how to play the piano, record an EP, go on tour. Buy a great camera and take pictures, draw pictures, paint pictures, and then hang them all up in beautiful clusters and collages all over my home. I want to travel. Join the peace corps. Join the army. Anything but stay in college.
All I know is that this is the part where we forget about me ever wanting to get my Masters and phD...
I didn't really mean it.
Done and done.